honoring the grief

One thing cancer really taught me is patience. Patience with myself, with the process and with life in general.ย 

I’m still dealing with the emotional after effects of having had cancer. (My eight month post remission check up was a clean bill of health! Woot!). And although there is mostly gratitude and appreciation for where I’m at, there is also a lot of grief to process.

Sometimes I just have to drop everything and go through it.ย 

So that’s where I’ve been. Dealing with what needs to be dealt with. I’m beginning to emerge from my necessary hiding and I’ll be posting and making again now. But I just wanted to say hello and that all is well and I’m just working to find my footing still in this post-cancer life.

I’ve been writing about my cancer experience. It’s quickly turning into book length. I don’t know that I will ever do anything with it but it helps to put it on pages and get some of it out of my mind.ย 

At any rate, I’m making a little comeback and thanks for sticking with me! ๐Ÿ™‚

16 thoughts on “honoring the grief

  1. Pat Arndt says:

    Lynn, you are so special to so many. I am so happy you are at the other side. But I know this will become part of you, part of your story.

  2. Robbie Payne says:

    You have such a great support system with your family and friends….that’s what is so important!!! I have another friend who is now going to through chemo (already lost all her hair – with assistance from her buds to shave!). It’s always hard for us sitting on the side line to know what we should or shouldn’t say to our friends going through this journey. Hope we have each given you the correct support!!! I may suggest my friend start her own journal…..just not sure how to mention this!!

  3. Carol says:

    Big woot woot on your 8 month news! And for doing the work to process your journey. Your spunk is inspirational (~:

  4. Gini Bellettini says:

    Welcome back! I was a bit concerned about your absence but I get it. Thanks for checking in with those of us who care about you. Take it easy and go slow.

  5. sarah Ann Smith says:

    I do hope you realize how amazing you are. And I am pretty sure you know how many of us just love you for being YOU, all of you, grief and need to privacy included. Consider yourself hugged. And given the brilliant 8-month-check news, let’s make it big, huge, honkin’, jumping up and down exuberant hug! Give Carter an extra snuggle and scritch from me, and Pigwidgeon sends a comforting bump and resting-of-his-chin on the body part of your choice. How about another hug?

  6. susan says:

    Thanks for sharing what you are thinking and feeling. All the best to you as you move forward in your creative life.

  7. Lesley says:

    Brilliant that you have such positive news…. life changing, life evolving…. and welcome back! It is part of your history and will be part of your future, I have become much more open to change as a result and will try anything (once) ๐Ÿ™‚

  8. Beth Schnellenberger says:

    Reading your words about what you have been through and what you need to do for yourself is so good for those of us dealing with cancer or a loved one with cancer. Nate is back in the hospital (Thanks for your kind words on Caring Bridge) and things donโ€™t look good for us. We are speaking to hospice tomorrow. My grief is new, but as my new tattoo says, โ€œI Can Do This.โ€

  9. Glorianne says:

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts so we can understand better this life after cancer. My daughter in law is post cancer too, and like you, it’s a bit of a ride. You said it better. I’m so happy for your good check ups. Our girl received good news too. Thanks for the inspiration!

  10. julep says:

    I dealt with cancer in 2000. For a few years every ache, bruise, pimple, sneeze……you get it……….put fear in my mind and gut. I finally relaxed after I passed the 5 year, then the 10 year mark; and honestly I just filled out forms in a new Dr. office and I forgot to list cancer under surgery when it asked what surgeries I had.

    I does consume your life after the fact, I’m not sure how to avoid that, but it’s a good thing because it makes you diligent about your health and habits. But alas, I’ve slipped again in that department as the years have passed. I also had the feeling of this big red “C” on my forehead right after diagnosis and didn’t tell anyone but my husband for weeks. That took a few years to pass in order to talk about it with anyone but my immediate family, my Mother still does not know!! I read a lot, and I’m not as afraid of cancer anymore. It’s actually becoming more curable than a lot of other diseases we all face as we go through life.

    I hope you will be able to deal with your emotions through the coming years. I didn’t set out to be positive, it just happened. Just like the day I heard the diagnosis from my Dr. I was shocked, but I immediately got a hold of the fact “whatcha gonna do, cards are dealt, deal with it” and I did and have. Wishing you peace and happiness!!

  11. Susan McQuade says:

    Lynn…grateful to hear of a Praise Report for you. Sending blessings to you for all good things to come your way.

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